I came across this question online the other day and it really got me thinking about how relevant it is for me. It stayed on my mind for a fair few days and then I thought to write a blog post about it. So, here you have it, a list of things that I would do if I wasn’t too scared!
This is definitely my number one. If I wasn’t a self conscious, unconfident, anxious, family centred individual I would just up and travel by myself but no, those reasons hold me back. I really, really want to see the world. I think travelling adds so much experience and so many memories that you will always be able to treasure but the scared me just won’t let it happen. Maybe when I’m a bit older I’ll be able to see the world in the form of holidays where I will always be returning home!
This is obviously a broad subject. As a broader subject, this would be titled exercise but although going to gym causes anxiety within me, I do get up and do it when I’m not being lazy. Running on the otherhand, I would love to just go out jogging regularly but I have fear of people staring / judging me so the way around this for me would be to run on an evening but then I worry because it’s dark and dark = scary! I have been jogging before with my sister so this isn’t as intense as others but I just wish I had the confidence to do it more as well as by myself!
Have a better social life
I honestly think my life socially would be so much stronger if I wasn’t so scared deep down. I’m too scared of being judged, too scared of being wrong, too scared of introductions, too scared of falling over. Too scared of too much. I don’t think I hold myself back on doing things with the friends I already have but any opportunity to meet new people or do things with new people/ people I’m not that close with, I just get really nervous and scared and then either don’t go or I have to bring people with me. I just wish I had the confidence to go out and do things by myself and have fun without the fear. Don’t get me wrong, I push myself a lot and I will do it sometimes and then once I’m comfortable I’m like what was all the fuss about? It’s the overthinking about how it could go that ruins it.
Have a much larger wardrobe
By this I mean, if I had no worries, there are so many more pieces I would have in my wardrobe. There are so many clothes I love but I just think to myself when will I wear it? And it’s not out of styling worries, it’s because I would be too scared to wear it because of what people would think. I know it’s fashion but I love fashion so this one really gets to me because I see people in the street who just don’t care and have very what I would call “out there” fashion and I envy them massively.
Publicize my blog
This is one that really gets me. I have had this blog since the end of 2014 but only really used it properly for the last half a year or so. I love writing, I love reading and I obviously love fashion and beauty so a blog is literally amazing to me – I just wish I had the confidence to publicise it fully to my social media. I am definitely getting there and do actually post it now but it just still really freaks me out.
Start a Youtube channel
Anybody who knows me will read this and be like what?! From the above section, I think it’s obvious I really do not have the confidence to be on Youtube. I do think when it comes to the filming side of it, I would be OK- I actually think I’d absolutely love it but when it would come to uploading, I’d be absolutely petrified. It’s a shame really because I would love to have a vlogging channel because I love watching vlogs and I think it’s an amazing platform to look back on your life… but I just don’t see it happening… until I conquer fully publicising my blog at least!
That’s my answer to the quote. What would you do if you weren’t scared?